a new start

moved

2007-01-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

MOVED.

thecontract.livejournal.com (;

hurt xtina

2006-12-30T00:57:00.000+08:00

im sorry for blaming you.
for everything i just couldnt do.
and i've hurt myself by hurting you.

where are you gonna get your strength from?

2007, im waiting for you.

amos

2006-12-28T14:38:00.000+08:00

was talking to this person jst now on msn.
my gosh, hes changed so much.. im kinda worried for him.
sigh.

"where the light shines the brighest, the darkest shadows are formed."
- taken from someone's msn nick.

its been a really random day..
hmm thanksgiving cg later.

JANIS I MISS YOU! (;

christmas celebration

2006-12-26T18:01:00.000+08:00

this yr's christmas is something different, something special (;
although the past week was extremely, supremely busy and tiring, it was really worth it..

last night was a blast.
fuzzy wuzzy likes ______, dont like celia.
heh.

i really loveeeee this yr's christmas.
hmm, thanks to all who gave me presents.
really liked them.

happy boxing day!
love, celia and chewy.

merry christmas eve!

2006-12-24T03:03:00.000+08:00

christmas is approaching...
infact its christmas eve now.
felt so busy this week..
w children's church, cg, friends and all.
i haven had any me-time this week.. );
and me-time is really impt to me.. even chewy feels i dont love her as much alr..
but at the same time though im so sleep deprived, i still wanna spend every moment i can.
anyone understand wht im saying? or maybe im blabbering already.
jst caught night at the museum w wee pam n jessie.
yeah though thrs still serv tmr, and we're all slpy like rubbish.. we still caught it.
youre dumbdumb, i want my gumgum.
you better run run, they gonna hunt hunt.
my fav char in the show (;

better catch some wink..
we're queueing at 11.3o.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE PEOPLE (;
give something to ppl whom you love.
the smiles on their face are priceless when they received the gifts.
their smiles are worth a thousand smiles.

i'l never understand why.

2006-12-20T02:08:00.000+08:00

the more you stay the same,
the more you seem to change.

i'l never understand why.

disappointed w dad

2006-12-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

i dont think ive ever been more disappointed in anyone than you.

tears

2006-12-17T03:20:00.000+08:00

ive always wondered why tears tasted salty.
is the taste of sadness salty?

all again

2006-12-17T02:57:00.000+08:00

oh no.
please dont tell me its all coming back again.
okay.
not again.
seriously..

i really had a great time w pam jst nw after service,
had my dinner and we caught the holiday.
really nice (; very lovey dovey kind.
oh, and of cos caroling.. jst the both of us.. in the park.
how exciting.
the mosquitoes were like clapping their wings.

i knw im sleep deprived..
but i dont feel sleepy /;

so this is how it feels like

2006-12-16T06:55:00.000+08:00

waking in the mornings

so this is how it feels like.

i saw the vague outline of sunrise outside my window, behind the row of flats.
so this is how it feels like.

i realised ive been so busy, too busy in everything i neglected Him.
i forgot how beautiful mornings can be, how pure the air breathes into my lungs.
He woke me up to enjoy the mundanity of time with Him; the sounds of engines from early vehicles, the bright chirpings of little yellow birds..

i forgot how it feels like,

but He brought it all back.

back in action!

2006-12-15T12:26:00.000+08:00

CELIA'S BACK IN ACTION.
:D :D

im sooooooo haaappy my comp is working at last.
hahahaha *all smiles.

take care you people!

be of gd cheer

2006-12-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

okaaaayyy... comp monitor kinda exploded. wont be going online and blogging for quite some millennium. dont miss me.
have fun this festive season, shop more, give more love to your neighbours, smile, be of good cheer.

:D
celia and chewy love you!

2006-11-25T03:22:00.000+08:00

suddenly everything seems so clear.
whts the truth.

do you still have faith?

2006-11-25T02:40:00.000+08:00

im thinkg of changing to livejournal....
dental in 10 hrs time.
hmm....... i think im gonna choose black.

do you still have faith?
doubt your doubts before you doubt your beliefs.

mind's cafe

2006-11-24T03:03:00.000+08:00

maybe one day you'd jst muster the courage to face it
dont you ever get tired of running and running?

knees get weak.

hmm, actually we can make the game TABOO ourselves.
haha (;

robin, no more stepping backwards alright?
chewy will step out w you :D

took many stupid photos w robin xing and ivy today..
HAHA. shall post some up.. (;

passing on the baton.
baton of hope and strength

(;

paparazzi shots: lindsay lohan, nicole richie.. and erh...... robin?

ivy blew and blew... and the leaves came rustling down...

OUIEE ROBIN! can see your hands luh!

hohum! ive 6 hands.
theyre of different shades, shapes and sizes.
hear me HUMMM..

happy family (;

why did you look so lost

2006-11-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

celia, why are you so easily persuaded.. so easily influenced.
why did you look so lost.

had a loooong talk w my lecturer, veron, today.
she really reminded me of my aunt penny. hah..
seriously, the way they talk.. the way their actions flow.. the way they get excited whn they talk about their experiences. sooo alike.. i think theyre even abt the same age..
i kinda get this warm feeling whn i talk to veron, makes me feel like im talkg to my aunt instead..
and so, veron was telling us about her life..

"to be daring, bold.. you cant be timid.. theres bound to be competition. even whn u set up stalls in flea markets, there are also competitions; you place items side by side with other venders. same price, but the thing that stands out will be your quality, your design."

im seriously thinking about going into apparel designing instead of international merchandising..
i like to sew.. i like to create something out of nothing, you knw?
this satisfaction tht arrives within you, whn you created something is really exhilarating.. i cant really describe it w words. you jst feel... wonderful.

however, im really afraid.. what if im not creative enough? what if i cant survive the competitions? what if i cant draw well? what if i cant find a job after i grad?

but..

what if youre creative enough and you didnt knw it? what if you can really take pressure in competitions jst tht uve never tested your limits? what if you can draw well just tht you needed more practise? what if you get a really cool job offer after you grad just tht you dont knw it now?

voices of limitations.
dont tell me what i cant do.

had visitation today.
im starting to love these kids more(;

strike up the band
make the fireflies dance
silver moon sparkling
so kiss me

one heart's desire

2006-11-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

its one thing to know,

its another to comprehend.

dont let hearts turn cold.

i want to keep that fire burning.
i want to keep those waters flowing.
one heart's desire.

the way you feel inside

2006-11-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

"im not sure changing your look will change the way you feel inside.."
- nip/tuck.

youre so unreasonable.

time always fools.

2006-11-20T03:24:00.000+08:00

i dont knw what im holding on to.
delusion or a glimpse of hope?

time always fools.

little becomes much in master's hands

2006-11-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

the little youve in your hands becomes much in the master's hands.

futile attempt at shopping today for bro's wedding.
however,
bought this really flowly top for 12 bucks.. for may and lawrence's wedding(;
promised sis i'l sew a skirt for her birthday..
kinda regretting it now /; jst means heavier workload.

sch hols approaching..
and i can almost hear the sleigh bells ringing (;
its my favourite time of the year.
and i jst love the carols.

its so much to take; too much to hide.

bam bam.
dont you break down.

treasure

2006-11-17T01:17:00.000+08:00

when the oceans rise and thunders roar
i'l soar with you above the storms.

you just make me want to treasure you even more.
cos i'l nvr knw whns the day we'l stop talking again.

words of encouragement

2006-11-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

okaay. i just had my QT.. and i felt these were what God spoke:

robin: dont be afraid to step out
janis: busy and tired people are ones God will use
wee: give your whole heart to Him
aaron: God is always your peace
xing: go to God for rest

eh tudung. i dont knw why i dont have a word for you, but i believe God is working in you and instilling greater responsibility :D

are we ever gonna learn to fly

2006-11-16T00:16:00.000+08:00

im soooooo sleeepy.
the week is almost over.. so fast!
had saturation+visitation today.. plus sch in the afternooon.
tiring i tell you. plus my bag was heavy like no tmr.

i swop sides of my bed w chewy.
but she didnt keep to her deal. she still takes the WHOLE BED.
selfish ah she.

sis and bro's bdae coming.
and im brokeee.
i think im gonna sew a skirt for my sis.. but its gonna take some time man.
i still have a buy a purple dress for my bro's wedding. almost forgot /;

im tired tired tired. but i dont wanna go to bed yet.

are we ever gonna learn to fly.

Flooded eyes dont represent a faithless heart.

2006-11-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

He weeps so we will know: Mourning is not disbelieving.
Flooded eyes dont represent a faithless heart.
And His tears give you permission to shed your own. Grief does not mean you dont trust;
it simply means you cant stand the thought of another day without that important person.

theres always a time to say nothing.
your presence, of just being there, brings warmth.
believe that.

5 love languages

2006-11-12T18:13:00.000+08:00

ivy introduced me to this website (;
http://www.youthnetsouthampton.org.uk/breakout/lovelanguages.php

GO CHECK IT OUT. its bout your 5 love languages :D
just like the ones we did in cg.

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		9
Acts of Service:		7
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		4
Receiving Gifts:		4

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

i wonder if they have the DISC thingy online. hmm..
weekend service w ulf ekman was GREAT.
though at times i cldnt catch wht he was saying, but it ALWAYS ended off great.
RECHARGED.

gotta whisper cos i cant be too loud.

2006-11-10T11:49:00.000+08:00

gotta whisper cos i cant be too loud.
i miss you tremendously.

tad tiring

2006-11-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes,
it gets a tad tiring..
having to choose to smile,
even when youre not smiling anymore.

school's gd.
i like sewing (;
but i broke two needles today. and i didnt replace them /;
ooops.
kinda drafting my second skirt now, its w pleats.
harder to do, w more steps, much more complex.
but its fun (; i think im gonna wear tht skirt. haha
yes yes wee. i'l design a short skirt for you too.
sexy ultra mini k :D

you knw, its those times whn u wanna blog bout something, yet its too personal to type it out here in words.. so yeah.

i still remember.

thankful

2006-11-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

im thankful,
that you crossed my path.
and even though its just for a few months..
im still gonna treasure that.

(;

renewed

2006-11-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

RENEWED.

received the dvd chc gave out today.
its really ministering, esp the last few songs. (;
God's presence was so strong jst now..
love renewed.
strength renewed.
courage renewed.
God said so many things. so many many things..

celia i love you.
and nothing, NOTHING, will ever change that fact.
love, God.

did the building fund pledge today.
i believe i'l reap in joy, though i sowed in tears.
its gonna happen, and i've the faith for that.

what can this world offer, whn all i desire is You?
really, nothing. nothing at all.

ayashi no ceres

2006-11-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

spent whole day watchg 'ayashi no ceres'.
heh heh :D
i dont like japanese anime, but this is really an exception.
go catch it on youtube if you can. i promise its really nice!
(; 24 episodes only anyway.

im so sleeepy..
i so dont feel like going tmr's farewell lunch.
are you seeing this cheryl?
heh heh, youre gonna be aloneeeeee if i dont go tmr.

flu update.
i used 2 toilet rolls today, and a box of tissue paper.
my nose feels really really raw now.
ouch. pain.

18nov.
(; how time flies.

standstill

2006-11-03T19:51:00.000+08:00

just how much is it gonna take,
to get this heart start beating again.

missed two days of school.. uh oh.
i feel so tired suddenly..
a standstill.

i miss you. really do.

betrayed chewy

2006-11-02T00:37:00.000+08:00

You Are: 70% Dog, 30% Cat

You and dogs definitely have a lot in common.You're both goofy, happy, and content with the small things in life.However, you're definitely not as needy as the average dog. You need your down time occasionally.

Are You More Cat or Dog?

how can! ):
i felt like i betrayed chewy.

2006-10-31T11:07:00.000+08:00

ohmygosh. the last part damn sweeet! (;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tFWIKSI00Vo

celia loves her friends

2006-10-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

and all these times
where'd you rather be.

did basic skirtg todaaaay.
WOAAAAAAH. my life is shortened by two years can. ):
okay, touch wood. *touch ivy's head.
HEH HEH HEH :D

celia loves her friends (;

spaces btw fingers

2006-10-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

"The Reason God Put Spaces Between Your Fingers Was So That Someone Else Could Fill Them Up."

so nice eh! (;

children's church kids are sooooo cute i tell ya!
i like busing. cos....
1. i get to sit down
2. thrs aircon
3. long rides (iloveeelongbusrides!!)
:D now celia's a happy kid
): but i cant do busing nxt wk. ive some farewell lunchie thing at my grandma's hse.
rah!

i think im loving chewy even more. heh
shes jst so fat n huggable.
and whn i hug her, shes jst so fluffy and warm (;
really warms my heart up the same time.

YI MEI:
YOU STUPID GIRL.
I MISS YOU LUH. STOP PLAYING YOUR NEOPETS CAN.
LIKE HELLO. PPL MOVE ON TO OTHER GAMES ALR. -.-
): i missss you anyway.

QAZIM:
hello you idiot. i bet you forgot me alreaaaaady right!
you...... ingrate.
I MISSS YOU MY CHEM PARTNER, NIPSIES, TDH(not)!

i lub chu two! <3 <3

it must have been really hard, to love someone like me.

2006-10-25T17:50:00.000+08:00

it must have been really hard, to love someone like me.
i dont want to be someone perfect to you,
cos it'l jst mean you hardly knw me.
aftr your anointing is lifted at times,
will i still like you?
i dont knw either.. and im afraid to knw..
let the rain fall i dont care.

dont fall?

2006-10-22T20:49:00.000+08:00

i really really really want to be there for you.
but i dont know how.

dont fall..? );

my long lost friend

2006-10-22T01:11:00.000+08:00

en-joy.
add in joy k, jan jan?

"nothing is ever too lost. jst hold on, even when you feel like letting go."

LION.
courage.
strength.

thanks lin and yirun, for coming today(;
ben and jerry's icecream sure tasted good!

I WANT TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE.
TO SOMEWHERE CALM AND RELAXINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
nt tht im feelg very stressed nw, jst tired of waking up every morning seeing the same mundane things. roawwhh.

my long-lost friend.

timetable

2006-10-21T13:00:00.000+08:00

did i say say the new timetable is out?
oh man. i feel so sad. i was lookg at wee's timetable and then mine.
my goodness. vast difference can.
ive to make my font size 6 cos thrs tht many words in there.
AHHHH.

sometimes i feel like such an unhelpful friend.

while i was watching, you did a slow dance.

you can still have fun without breakg the rules.

2006-10-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

you can still have fun without breakg the rules.
please, guard your heart.

i'd this urge to go clubbing jst this afternoon.
didnt knw why i had tht sudden thought.
but now i know why.

"in the end it doesnt even matter."
how would you knw until youve reached the end?
u'l never knw what matters until youve really reached the end.
and im pretty sure, youre jst not there yet.

watched stay alive w lin today
thanks love, i really enjoyed this day w you.
smooch. i think most of the show time, we were covering our eyes.
lin stop playing comp games, theyre gonna haunt you.

cg's tmr. im soo lookg forward to it. (;

jealousy

2006-10-18T02:00:00.000+08:00

school's hectic.
i need to exercise.
i cleaned chewy's litter(big hurray here pls).
culture class ended.
friends arent doing well.
i want to love You more.

you knw, we read the bible not to let God change His opinion about us(whn readg the bible becomes an obligation).. but to change our opinion about Him.

im soooooooo hungry.
did i tell you im on meat fast w janis?
meat fast is abstaining from meat right?

anywaaay.
its funny wht jealousy can do to one person.
and how jealousy leads to insecurity.
which leads to distance, whn you refuse to deal with it.

i cut my fringe today.
okay this post is super random.
oh yeah, cut would be an understatement.
okok fine. i chopped off my fringe.

and like i said, random post.
mind's super cluttered.
i need rest.

have you ever wanna wake up from your dreaming,
but your heart just refuses to budge.
and im staring at myself again.
now, its all the same.

imu.

angel doll

2006-10-13T00:49:00.000+08:00

you knw, sometimes you look at pictures of couples, you just smile cos you find them so blissful, happy and all?

but however, i just felt really sad whn i looked at your photos..
i just dont understand how and why.
i felt like it wasnt you whom i saw in there.
you looked.. lost.
like you didnt knw what youre doing..
i felt really sad and disappointed..
i mean, okay i dont know hw to say..

todays E314 bbq was GREAT GREAT GREAT
im kinda hungry now though.. /;
ONE DAY, JUST ONE DAY.. im gonna stay at a hse like aaron's.
and have a wonderful maid like aaron's tutek.
hahaha
okay, celia you go girl.
im missing church. (;

i feel so light, like a burden lifted

2006-10-11T23:52:00.000+08:00

really thank God for today (;
everything went on smoothly..

one funny thing though, janis walked into starbucks not knwg we were there..
then she ah.. so confident(eh your fav word) walked to a table n settled there.
haha aiyah jan jan i love you(;
thanks for waaaaiting so long for me.
and pls dont feel paiseh walkg into starbucks jst nw.
but u've to admit its really super funny
hahahaha. the expression on your face was priceless whn u noticed us and quickly left.
love you (;

i feel so light, like a burden lifted. :D

"so many people like you, everyone loves you.. i really dont knw where i stand. i was afraid of losing you.. to me, youre perfect."

never break your spirit for the world

2006-10-11T14:04:00.000+08:00

"But never break your spirit for the world. Your spirit is one thing the world can never break. Only you can break your spirit for the world. And its not worth it. Guard your spirit.

You know, what the world does with your shattered pieces?
It uses temporary glue to piece you back.
Then just as you are about to feel complete, it brings you so high, and you feel so good.
Then, The world lets go
You'll be utterly shattered."

yea.

theres jst something bout you.

2006-10-11T01:37:00.000+08:00

theres jst something bout you.

pm was great ytd.
i love spendg time w janis n wee2.

divine strength and courage needed for today.

promises

2006-10-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

you know, researches have shown that for every one negative thing you said to a person, you need to cover it with at least 12(or 16??) positive comments to wash away that ONE SINGLE negative word.

i wonder,
for every promise you broke.
how many promises youve to fulfill,
to make up for that broken one.

you tell me.

he once said 'wow..youre alot of things'

2006-10-09T04:36:00.000+08:00

he once said 'wow..youre alot of things'

ahhhhhhh. its 4.3oam and im still rushing my stupid stupid BB powerpoint. seriously, ive no idea how im gonna present my idea later.
rah!

let go

2006-10-08T13:56:00.000+08:00

let go.

ricola sweets

2006-10-07T02:07:00.000+08:00

my dad jst did something that really made me think alot.
he handed me a packet of ricola sweets; his gesture of concern.
i was like coughing a little while ago, cos i kinda choked on something..

then my dad came out saying, "i bought this cough sweet jst now, then buy one get one free. you want the extra packet?", in chinese of cos.

to you perhaps it meant nothing, but God told me this was wht he actually meant: "i heard you coughing back then, and i want you to have this, to soothe your cough.. im not good with words. ive never been able to express my love for you. but i want you to have this packet of sweets. this shows that i care.."

it was merely just a little cough cos i choked, and yet his gesture meant so much to me.
so many times whn i heard him coughing, i kept stickg a mental note to buy him some cough sweets, and yet never once did i buy it..
reminder, sweet reminder.
then God said, sucha little trivial matter, my dad showed concern to me.. much less Him, who loves us w an unconditional love.
how much more does He love me.. how much more does He really care for me.
agape love.

im not alone in this. i never was and never will be.
c o u r a g e

love

2006-10-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin?
well.. thats what LOVE is like.
everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going..

saw this quote at century sq today.
how nice (;

sunflowers.

will you... let me?

2006-10-03T22:17:00.000+08:00

what if i ran out of courage one day.
what if i ran out of strength to keep going on.
what if i lost the faith to make things work.
but i knw these wont happen.
jst cos, ive faith as small as a mustard seed.
not supremely alot, but it can move mountains.

but what if the possibility of you giving up on me increases day by day.
can i still do anything bout it?
will you.. let me?

tongue ; life/death

2006-10-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

Early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

anyway, school started today.
its quite okay..
a little boring somehow. HUNGRY most of the time..

zone tp outing at night.
tiffany is a really nice girl. haha she made me laugh so much okay..
and her chinese is pro like... how pro ppl speak.
ohh bfore that ivy and i wnt to meet janis (;
jan jan i loveee you! :D
and tudung, i love you too. jst dont let anyone catch u eating during the fasting month. HEH HEH.

AHHHHHH.
but i dread going school tmr.
nooooooooooooooo..

do you what it feels like.
tongue brings forth life/death.
please dont crush my spirit, again.

selfish

2006-10-01T19:07:00.000+08:00

i dont want to let you go.
call me selfish.

im really selfish.
);

a sudden missing/longing

2006-09-29T00:41:00.000+08:00

a sudden missing
a sudden longing

'and i love you with an everlasting love..'

im missing two people tremendously right now.
one's you.
and other is you.

i met you and now im sure,
this never happened before.
now i see,
this is the way its supposed to be.
i met you and now i see,
this is the way it should be.

and now we can be what we wanna be.

God speaks in wondrous ways! :D

2006-09-28T02:47:00.000+08:00

its really interesting how God speaks to you sometimes.
i was just telling ivy it has been a rather dry week for me as well, and tht Hes rather quiet.
then i realised God is speaking to me thru the things i was telling ivy as well.

when Hes not speaking, it doesnt mean Hes not listening.
please dont ever let me forget that.

ministry.
(;

be patient w God and yourself.
God's timetable is rarely the same as ours.
God is never in a hurry, but Hes always on time.

thrs no growth w/o change;
no change w/o fear or loss;
and no loss w/o pain.
every change involves a loss of some kind: you must let go of old ways in order to experience the new.

temptation is a sign that satan hates you, not a sign of weakness/worldliness.
okay, i wanna be tempted.
bring it on! :D

gonna give more; not gonna give up

2006-09-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

i hate it when God is silent.
but i know He just wants me to listen more.
cos He's more interested in my character than in my comfort.

its been a dry week.
so dry. but i know whn i refresh others, i'l be refreshed myself.
and im not gonna stop giving.
im gonna give and give even if it costs me all the strength and faith ive left.
im just gonna give you more, cos you gave me your all to see me through.
and im not gonna give up.
not now. not ever.
cos i love you babe.
and im gonna take everything to see you through.
just dont give up on me yet alright? (;

'doesnt it feel like youre making a mistake?'
am i?

for dear janis

2006-09-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

and sometimes, you feel so hopeless.
not knowing how to help.
it hurts me to see you hurting.

but my dear friend, i really pray to see the joy in you again..

one thing i learnt last night,
was that "happiness is based on external circumstances, but JOY is based on your relationship with God"

be jovial once more, will you?
i love you (;

2cor 12:9

2006-09-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

2 cor 12:9
"..My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."

this verse tiff shared during cg, was exactly what i wanted to share during the prayer meeting at my house before cg.

its like a constant reminder to me (;
thank You.

i dont wanna be satisfied at where i am right now.

bring it on.

thanks hz, and im sorry (;

2006-09-21T12:55:00.000+08:00

and the conversation we had last night jst keep replaying in my head like a broken cassette.
and im not saying its a bad thing (;

im sorry, hz.

cg outing last night.
catched little man, HMM. no idea wht to say about it. hahahaha
it was alright, but i'd rather watch akeelah and the bee.
but its okay, its the company and not entertainment, that matters (;
thanks kelvin, for organising it. heh, and for being the FIRST(how come i never see you come first during queue-up??!) to arrive, and for booking the tix.

one thing that kinda came back to my memory this morning while cooking my instant porridge, was what gabriel said.
well you see, hz reached late from work last night and all, and so when she came, she said sorry to us all..

hz: hey sorry, sorry!
gabriel: youre forgiven(though i think hz didnt hear that)
the rest: ohh, its okay luh..

then i was rather amused by gabriel saying 'youre forgiven' so i turned to him, and he said furthermore, 'how come you all never say 'she's forgiven'?'
he said it so earnestly, i wanted to laugh.

and i remembered what pst kong said last weekend, youve to say 'youre forgiven' not just becos of yourself, but youve to let the person's burden go.. youve to help the person release it by saying 'youre forgiven'
i know this is a very small matter, nothing of a big deal.. but most(all?) things start off small isnt it? and its quite a heart warming feeling to see gabriel practising what he learnt.. :D
okaaay, im not very good at expressing myself, but to you guys who went last week, you shld know wht im saying (;

then i wonder, how often do we really practise wht we learnt during the weekends?
and wht use is it to us if we were to go during weekends, and yet have 'learned nothing'.

okaaay, my instant porridge taste terrible.
cg at night later (;

leadership

2006-09-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

"leadership can be like... you help those who are poor and weak in spirit around you, an encourager."

true..
and thats my aunt for you (;

cg outing tmr!

OHYEAH, AND MY BRACES IS RED NOW.
nd it kinda hurts a little. my teeth feels rubbery.
and whn i clench my teeth tgr, it hurts. /;
wht a peculiar feeling.

leaf for a tree

2006-09-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

how much
jst how much are you willing to sell your soul for?

hek, what a qn.

anyway, i stayed home today!
yes. the wholeeee day.
not even one step out. hek hek.
okayy but im going for dental tmr, and then bringing chewy to the vet for her vaccination.
so exciting.
im like sadistic luh, as in.. i think i like putting braces /;

meiyan: oh man! it brings back bad memories
chin ghee: pain right? no?
sister: YOU PUT FOR WHAT

erhh okay.
i hope the vet dont find chewy too fat again. sigh ):

let go, let God.
a leaf for a tree.
a mouse for a lion.

i wanna have that tree and be a lion. (;

oh yuhhh!
i was sick the past few days, and i forgot to blog bout one matter..
okaay, on thurs i like suddenly had super high fever, so i didnt go work, didnt go cg..
then after cg wee2 like called me, and i cldnt really hear wht he was sayg.. but he was like askg how am i and everything luh..
then like 1oplus liddat, i thought i heard someone knockg on the door, but dismissed it luh.
then after more persistent knocking, i opened the door.. and guess whos thr!

GREEN GREEN, WEE WEE, TUDUNG N PATRICK!
hahahah what a lovely surprise (:

wee2: eh janis, tell her the joke
janis: *laugh laugh laugh* okokay. farmer A sell wht?
me: erh.... hahaha apple?
janis: *hands over 2 apples*
me: !!!
*laughters at the bkgrd*
janis: farmer B sell wht?
me: orange?
janis: *hands over 2 oranges*
me: okaayyyyy
janis: farmer C(pharmacy) sell wht?
me: medicine?
janis: noooo! hahaha *hands over pay cheque* farmer C sells CHEQUE.
me: oh mann.. *faint
janis: farmer L sell wht?
me: i dont know ;/
janis: *hands over the lion*

awww (;
im really touched tht night and i feel soooo loved, thanks sooo much, you guys..
and janis, im really glad u still remembered the lion thingy. (;
smoooch to the four of you!

and noooooooo, i haven eaten the fruits yet. hek hek

you:

2006-09-16T11:22:00.000+08:00

youre holding me
now i face the future hand in hand with you
and your spirit freshes soul like water new.
your peace it stills, my busy mind.
youre holding me

sometimes, i sit back n just wonder how marvelous it is to always have someone constantly thinking of you.. someone constantly loving you.. someone constantly caring for you..
and who can do this, other than our lovely abba father?

i just read someone's blog..
nd i wont deny im feelg rather heavy hearted..
i dont know if you still read my blog but here's one to you..

you:
you came so far, pls dont give up..
pls dont just give up halfway..
actually, its alr more than halfway.
you came this far just to give up?
certainly not right?
nd i stillll wanna see the thingy i wrote in your notebook (;
pls keep it intact in there!
just keep going, going, going......
'cos God, chewy and i love you (;

use of alphabets

2006-09-15T14:25:00.000+08:00

The BEST use of Alphabets;

Although things are not perfect;
Because of trials or pain;
Continue in thanksgiving;
Do not begin to blame;
Even when the times are hard;
Fierce winds are bound to blow;
God is forever able;
Hold on to what you know;
Imagine life without His love;
Joy would cease to be;
Keep thanking Him for all the things;
Love imparts to thee;
Move out of "Camp Complaining";
No weapon that is known;
On earth can yield the power;
Praise can do alone;
Quit looking at the future;
Redeem the time at hand;
Start every day with worship;
To "thank" is a command;
Until we see Him coming;
Victorious in the sky;
We'll run the race with gratitude;
X-alting God most high;
Yes, there'll be good times & yes some will be bad, but...
Zion waits in glory...where no one is ever sad!

The shortest distance between a problem and a solution is the distance between your knees and the floor.

The one who kneels to the Lord can stand up to anything.

why?

2006-09-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

'why does e past always catch up when ur gathering e pieces of urself n picking up again.'

i really dont know what to do anymore.
so.. to you, im just a past alr?..
why are you doing this?

effort

2006-09-12T15:50:00.000+08:00

its not easy.
and i just cant see the effort in you.

be strong, celia

one more moment

2006-09-11T01:28:00.000+08:00

love always protects
but time has a habit of slipping away.

busy.
no idea why since its my hols.
warped.
its funny how your thinking and thoughts can be twisted and perceived to each individual's mind.

i read tht to fellowship is to talk heart to heart, to communicate spirit to spirit.. not just sitting ard a table, eating food tgr.
but i can really say tht i fellowshipped w ivy these few days. esp during the chalet thingy.
im glad the chalet brought us closer together.
talkg bout our visions, our dreams n ministries. (;
and the bus ride home from pasir ris inter,
prov 28:19
babe, you encouraged me w tht verse as well

for just one more moment,
just one more moment
with you.

sometimes time will treat you bad,
before you even know whats wrong.
and in the end it hits you hard,
pls tell me you'l be strong.

green green, duck duck, tudung, melting.
<3

evermore

2006-09-07T11:32:00.000+08:00

when i look upon Your name,
circumstances will fade away.

my heart, my heart will sing.
and even if my world falls i'l sing,
abv all i live for Your glory (;

aaaaalright.
chalet starts today!
wont be blogging anytime soon i guess.
hohoho. its gonna be fun fun fun ;D

tears

2006-08-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

God says i shldnt rehearse my hurts; im jst feeding them food each day.

tears.
God, you'l collect them right?
the tears i cry, theyre nvr wasted..
you keep them.. theyre so precious for you.
you cry when i cry.. you smile whn i smile.. youre elated n whole heaven celebrates whn i got saved.. you hold my hand whn i fell short of your glory.
you lemme sit on your laps and sing songs to me.. you comfort me whn no one does..
youre collecting the tears right now, and i know one day whn i go up to heaven,
im gonna see the tears you collected.
i love You.. i really do.
you know, the purpose driven book..
they say earth is just to prepare for eternity..
so why m i dwelling so much on the matters of the earth? at death i wont leave home, but i'l go home.
i want a mansion ok!
haha no not really.. i want to sit nxt to You..
i wanna hear your angels sing in love of Your name..
i wanna join in the singing and always rejoice in Your love..
i wanna love You with the agape love.. im not perfect lord.. but Youre.
and Your perfect love casts out all fears..

sometimes i imagine the world without you ,most time im just so happy that i ever find you(: says:
just think of the smile you can put up on others when you're happy
sometimes i imagine the world without you ,most time im just so happy that i ever find you(: says:
and maybe u can take away 50% of their unhappiness
sometimes i imagine the world without you ,most time im just so happy that i ever find you(: says:
its sounds crappin luh
sometimes i imagine the world without you ,most time im just so happy that i ever find you(: says:
but i rmb once i read from ur blog
sometimes i imagine the world without you ,most time im just so happy that i ever find you(: says:
u said something abt keep smiling everywhere u are becos there might be someone from another corner that will see it
sometimes i imagine the world without you ,most time im just so happy that i ever find you(: says:
it really impact me alot (:

i dont really rmb putting tht in my blog.. but seeing wht patrick typed to me on msn really refreshed me. thanks love.

whts done is done.
no point harping on it still.
move on, now.

treasures in jars of clay; says:
okay, next time i design skirt for you, you must wear k
Ride. says:
ok i will
Ride. says:
EEWW
Ride. says:
god , pls no
Ride. says:
but if tt makes u ppy
Ride. says:
i'll put it on for u

thanks robin. you really made me smile. (;
thank God, ive friends. true friends.

Beatrice says:
i luff youuuuu.

stir in me, my heart.. to lemme be dissatisfied at where i am.
celias gonna be a stronger girl.
less emotional.
Youre shaping my heart, Youre shaping my life.
and im gonna love You more each day.

treasures in jars of clay; says:
haha okaay.. but you mst promise me tht u will study harder ok?
Ride. says:
ok

okaay robin, you promised. no turning bk ok!
go robin, you can do well this year. (;

people commit mistakes, celia commits mistakes..
but God says He's a God who specializes in fresh starts.
so many times i fell short of your glory, sometimes i dont understand why You can love someone like me.. but i guess thats what being Perfect is all about.
Being perfect is all bout You.
And loving is all bout You.
God is LOVE.

celia is gonna keep on keeping faith.

and sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
starts with gdbye.

i misss you

2006-08-28T19:05:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU
alot. tremendous. so much. how?
these are the words you used to use.

whats happening?

beautiful

2006-08-27T20:34:00.000+08:00

beautiful.
God is beautiful.

i cant describe how beautiful beautiful is.
but whats more beautiful than a God who's perfect, who has never forsaken us, who has NEVER broken any promises.. and even if people around kept disappointing us, God has never disappoint and never will do..
and thats really.. beautiful(;

early day tomorrow. rah. i wanna sleep in, seriously..

ohh.. today's service is goood. (; altho stuupid aaron kept suan-ing me thru'out the whole service. that ssssmelly dustbin. rah!

im gonna emerge stronger after this ordeal. i can and i will.
thanks aivie for your concern(; you go girl!
all the best for your test tmr. hek.

and even when the world falls around me,
to you i'l still hold on.
i'l sing and sing..
heaven opens (;

cos whn we're weak, He becomes stronger.

2006-08-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

cos whn we're weak, He becomes stronger.

struggles at night are usually the hardest.
but ive to carry on walking.
i cant be stuck here.
been stuck here for far too long, toooooo long alr.

wow.. someone misses you too.
wow.. i dont know what to say.
but im gonna continue to trust..
life is a trust, and im gonna uphold it.

jaanis is in msia now. wonder wht shes doing. hek hek. miss you babe. churchs weird w ure absence. );

angel babe, im still here. (;

modelling

2006-08-25T23:12:00.000+08:00

okaay, gonna blog a long entry. its been a long time since i last blogged one.
BRACE YOURSELVES.

okaay.. was debating with myself last night whether i should still model for my seniors' designs.. decided to go ahead with it, reachd school at bout 12.. due to some hiccup, i wore a different design. hek hek. but looked nice all the same HAH.

okaay, i kinda dont have the pictures of me wearing the design but once i have it, i shall post it up here. hek hek, but meanwhile, dont keep your hopes up too high, cos if i think its ugly, im NEVER gonna upload it.

anyway, lemme describe how i looked. hmm, just think dramatic. as in HUGELY DRAMATIC kind. super thick thick THICK eyeliner and dark lippie. okay, you can also think goth. design is a black, slightly bubble dress, with a small black hat. there was supposed to be a cane along with it, but my designer forgot to bring it along..

ohyeaah, i wore shuting's killer black heels for the shoot. gdness. i can never understand how she can walk in it okaay. i practically risked my life by wearing that. like tripped a million times today ):

BUT STILL, a total fun experience.. im so glad i went in the end. heeee (; there will be catwalk lessons from vernon on monday. hah its damn funny okay, the way wilson typed the email to us. title was proj runway ya da ya da.. ohhh fashion show is at padang on the 31st. oh no, hopefully i can walk in heels by then.

and theeeen.. jst when i thought hols gonna be real slack and all, it seems tht so far ive been more busy than i was during comdi. talk bout being ironic. I HAVEN BEEN SLEEPING PAST NOON AT ALL SINCE HOLS. how can this be??? why am i even waking up earlier than compared to school days. sad.. this is real saaaaaaaad.

rahhhh, then tomorrow theres the jeans competition at JP again. then im modelling it again. oh no, i really hope things turn out reaaaal fine.. i wanna win the cash prize. PLEASE, LET BEBE AND I WIN THEE CAAASH PRIZE!

hmm, lemme recap:
12o8o6
No, that truama you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so.
But it was allowed to shape your heart.
So that into His likeness you'd grow.
(i wrote this in my notebook)

i wanted to type this excerpt from a poem of the Purpose-Driven life book ive been readg since quite a while ago. it was a section that really jumped out and spoke to me. but i initially forgot to blog bout it and then to the extent that i grew lazy after that. aaaaaand then, i was reminded of this verse again by Janis on 22o8o6. (; we were smsing then she suddenly sent me tht part of the poem. EXACT, IDENTICAL excerpt of the poem. love from God jst suddenly come flooding into my life, filling up all the voidness i cld possibly feel. i was once again reminded of His grace and mercy. He never forsakes, never.

cell group ytd was great, wonderful and also partly cos my two lovely friends came.
thanks bebe, thanks rach. your decision to go cg ytd really meant a lot to me (; and bebe, i know you were feeling sooo tired since you slept so lil(you kuku! stop sorting out your songss!) but yet you made the effort to come for cg. thaaaaanks love. (; but rmb tht even when ure weary and tired but still make the effort to walk the first step towards God, He will certainly take a thousand strides your way! so go bebe go! go rach go! HUGGGG.

ohhh i wanted to blog bout this the other day, but stupid blogger was giving me attitude. haiyoh. blogger ah, your attitude determines your altitude know. if you keep showg ppl your attitude, one day ppl's gonna jst stop using your server. RAH. anyway, i wanted to blog bout chewy's daily schedule. heh heh.
0900-1800: in room sleepg on my bed, with head propped onto her pinky pillow
1800-1900: walks out of room, stretches herself at the living room area. walk towards comp table and sleep under it.
1900-2200: walks bk to room and continues to slp on bed
2200-0200: goes kitchen and climbs onto the counter to sleep
0200-0900: goes back room and sleeps on my table
of cos there are inbtw intervals when she eats, does her business and stares at me.
but WOW, and i thought my life was boring sometimes..
but chewy practically leads a.. erh.. dormant life.

okaaaay, im soo talkg rubbish already. okaay. gonna have my QT soon and head to bed. head hurts like craaaaaaap. OH YEAH, DID I SAY I BOUGHT A NEW PAIR OF WEDGES TODAY? heh heh, okok.. kinda guilty of spendg compulsively, but yeah, i kinda need heels(height) for tmr's competition. okay, all the best to celia for the competition tmr. and celia, you WILL win the cash prize. go celia go!

the heart of the matter is a matter of the heart.
dont just read it through n dismiss it as something..
but really, think it in depth.

seeya people.
and janis love, sorry i didnt go the bbq ): head hurts like crap+tired tired celia = cranky celia

chasing the dreams tht heaven gave - lion

2006-08-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

empty-handed but alive in your hands (;
forever im changed by your love,
in the beauty of your majesty.

just wanna share that,
during cg today while worshipping, God showed me a lion.
lion; to be full of courage and strength, and with the least of fear..
a beast who's strong and mighty, but yet still under the reign of God. a beast who's powerful but yet again, falls to obedience of the almighty God.
i wanna be that lion (;
teach me to be that lion.

chasing the dreams that heaven gave.

janis, i wanna say thank you for standing by me all these time. it really meant a lot, a lot to me. thank you for your love, your giving and your care. but even as you keep giving your love to people, i guess you also gotta stop and receive some loving bk into your life. otherwise youre gonna be burnt out. and nope. i dont want a chao ta janis to hug ok? love you plenty luh munchkins! smoooch

wee2, you can do all things thru Christ who strengthens you rmb? youre gonna be of greater service to the kingdom of God, i can feel it in my spirit.. and i know you can too. just keep on keeping on whn the going gets even more tough. hug hug!

thanks, both of you. you've been God sent angels to me.
and i certainly thank God for the both of you.
plenty of love. (;

still

2006-08-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

STILL

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
Within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

i never fail to get encouraged whenever i hear this song.. hope you get encouraged too (;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UqlJz_sf3Is

yes, i will be still and know youre God.. (;
when the going gets tough, the tough gets going

celias not nice

2006-08-21T16:42:00.000+08:00

sometimes, you just keep giving and giving and giving.
and others just keep receiving and receiving..
and i feel so exhausted already.. really.
ive nothing more to give you.
celias not a very nice girl):

distractions

2006-08-19T23:55:00.000+08:00

so many things, so many distractions.

crying brings forth healing.
so go ahead and cry.
cry your heart out.

portfolio review

2006-08-17T00:04:00.000+08:00

You make me walk on the water
shine in the dark
You make me soar over mountains
put dreams in my heart
i walk by faith and live with praise
and i thank You for Your grace

let it never end.

portfolio review today.
mygoodness, i almost fainted whn i saw rach came out crying. ):
rach you sad i sad ok?

apparently they kept slamming on attendance and all.
and i know im so dead luh.
woah, said a silent prayer right before my turn..
turns out i had 2 MCs for paige.. 5 MIA, 1 MC for vernon.. 7 MIA, 2 MCs for wilson.
hahah seriously, i didnt know i didnt go so many times. i dont even rmb THAT many times ok..
i thought shucks, so dead. but yeah, God didnt let me down, nor did He forsake me. (;
come to think of it, the lecturers kept joking about with me, offering me MnMs.. even though my attendance was utter rubbish.
dont you find it a blessed thing?

cos everything works out good for those who loves Him.
yeah, everything (:

thank You

2006-08-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

i wanna have the spirit of thanking You no matter what happens.

ahh... courage.
one thing i really need right now.

first

2006-08-13T22:49:00.000+08:00

you know...
true love has no happy ending,

because true love has no ending (;

the marriage seminar thing is really cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee.
so blessed by it. hahaha
i always feel so happy whn im in God's presence.

my first love
forever You'l be.
my first breath
Youre the life in me.
my first joy
the world will never take from me.
my covenant with you...
Jesus(;

lock my heart

2006-08-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

pls,
remind me to find my heart.
then guard it well and keep it safe.
let me lock it up, throw towards heaven for safekeeping.
and only You can open it.
only You.

hurts, disappointments, rejections.
something we all have to deal with.
but its not so tough with these ordinary hands,
when we trust Someone with extraodinary plans.

and this, is the way it should be.

blabbering

2006-08-11T01:18:00.000+08:00

okay aivie, shall extend the invitation to you as well.
come, you robin jns n me shall go smell roses.

cg was really great today.
its different, refreshing and encouraging.
wee wee shared his testimony. oh noo luh, he teared. then jessie and me also teared. like funny pls. but im really glad wee wee stayed on, and tht he's really serving God's kingdom in sucha greaat way.
miss hui zhen though (;

was thinkg jst now.
and i realised i have friends whom i jst pour my heart out to.
friends whom i'l listen, offer words of encouragement, but its one-way. i wont be able to 'commit' to them.
friends whom we jst have joy and laughter tgr, no in-depth of any kind.

then i wonder, why cant i pour my heart out to those who pour their hearts out to me?
i dont want it to be an one-sided affair. im glad theyre willing to share their hearts with me, cos they trust me.. but why arent i able to do the same? its not that i dont trust them, well not that case always. but thrs just something different. a vibe tht they give off that i feel i cant say my deepest thoughts and secrets to them. perhaps like they wont be able to deal with it..
or sometimes friends jst want a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on, but theyre not willing to do the same to others.. or perhaps they dont like sharing their friend's problems.
perhaps theyre afraid of knowing who their friends really are.

okay, here i am blabbering like nobody's business.
ive no idea wht im saying luh. but okay, im gonna speak to God now.
love Him aplenty,
love my cg aplenty.

be fruitful, celia.

choked

2006-08-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

its jst no longer there anymore.
your heart.

choked.

chewy and the roach

2006-08-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

feels all so weird somehow.
yeah, the right word is different.. you're different now.
the more you stay the same, the more you seem to change.
i thought i was stronger. and i miss you so much.

happy birthday singapore (:

now i cant wait for christmas.
will i spend it with you this yr?
gonna cut my hair tmr; bangs and short hair
hope it turns out good.

something hysterically freaky but funny.
i woke up at like 7plus this morn cos chewy was making lotsa noise. like scratchg my bed and all.
so i woke with a shock and sat up straight on my bed.
then guess what i saw?
chewy was crouching on my bed, with a ROACH in her mouth.
i tell you, i can faint. then she place the roach on MY bed(hello it was mine! altho half of the bed belongs to her..) and obviously, the roach started scurrying TOWARDS ME in top speed.
and with a skillful move, chewy stopped the roach in midtracks(power ranger ah?) and brought it closer to her. then she looked up at me. then she let go of the roach again.
somehow i managed to muster up the courage to use wads of tissue to pin down the roach n threw it out of the window.
then i went bk to slp. then reality set in when i woke up at 11 plus. OHMYGDNESS. a roach was on my bed?! i think i was too slpy in the morn to even realise i was dealing with a roach.
i rmbed grace once told me that cats like their owners to be proud of them. like, they'l catch birds n insects n bring into the house to show them. and wrinkles caught a little bird into the hse in nz while i was thr, oh my luh.. poor birdy. and it died ):
rest in ~~pieces~~ peace.

thanks janis. youve been a treasure to me(:
ive had so much funn with you and i lovee you.
yimei, i miss you like nuts. thrs soo many things i wanna tell you, and theres soo many things i wanna hear from you. and now i miss you like mad.
qazim, im so glad we met up for the SA concert thingy. i want you to know youre special to me and i love you to bits n pieces!
lin, you make me reminisce on sec sch days. days whn we stand outside during phy class cos we simply didnt do hw/talk. (; memories.. lotsa love girlie, youre nt forgotten.

jst like what hz said.. i should really start focusing on what ive, nd not what i lacked.

what ive:
God
family
friends
and its already more than enough (:

janis, wait for me.
i wanna smell the roses too(;
robin, you wanna join us?
DONT GIVE UP, okay boy?

weighed down

2006-08-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

i feel so weighed down sometimes.

he said, guard your heart and the thoughts that come into your mind. dont let other people's problems become one of yours.

and what he says always bring me comfort.

but now, i dont know which direction to turn.

stop? go?
red? green?

eleventh hr

2006-08-04T01:25:00.000+08:00

of all that i've lost,
i missed my mind the most.

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS DOING THINGS AT THE ELEVENTH HOUR. WHY WHY WHY.
CELIA, STOP DOING THAT ALREADY.
ITS GONNA RUIN YOU ONE DAY.
just trust me.

theres no way i can complete my 2ooo word essay by daybreak.
i soo wanna give up.
i should jst stop schooling and work or smth.
be a model or airstewardess OR SMTH.
RAH.

i felt like ive lost 2bestfriends.
and the pain is inexplicable.

but You'l show your light in my darkest times.
Faith is seeing with your heart when the eyes of your body see only darkness ahead.
teach me to trust in You.
teach me,
to believe.

treasures in jars of clay

2006-08-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

Treasures in Jars of Clay

"We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed;
perplexed, but not in despair;
persecuted, but not abandoned;
struck down, but not destroyed."
2cor4:8-9

(:

i dont know why i felt this way.

lowered expectations

2006-07-28T22:12:00.000+08:00

i really wish to give you the benefit of the doubt.

and sometimes, you just have to lower your expectations for the people you love.
but now the qn is how much lower you want me to expect of you?

how much lower.

mario on piano

2006-07-28T14:02:00.000+08:00

seriously,
im awed beyond words.
I WANT TO PLAY LIKE THAT.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGRrHvz3RHc
pls go seeeeee if uve nothing better to do (:

walk of my life

2006-07-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

was lookg thru my inbox and i saw this (:
let this be the walk of my life

Hello God,
I called tonight
To talk a little while
I need a friend who'll listen
To my anxiety and trial.
You see,
I can't quite make it
Through a day just on my own...
I need your love to guide me,
So I'll never feel alone.
I want to ask you please to keep
My family safe and sound.
Come and fill their lives with confidence
For whatever fate they're bound.
Give me faith, dear God, to face
Each hour throughout the day,
And not to worry over things
I can't change in any way.
I thank you God for being home
And listening to my call,
For giving me such good advice
When I stumble and fall.
Your number, God, is the only one
That answers every time.
I never get a busy signal,
Never had to pay a dime.
So thank you, God, for listening
To my troubles and my sorrow.
Good night, God,
I love You too,
And I'll call again tomorrow!

The man whispered, "God, speak to me" and a meadowlark sang.
But, the man did not hear. So the man yelled, "God, speak to me"and the thunder rolled across the sky.
But, the man did not listen. The man looked around and said,"God let me see you."And a star shined brightly.
But the man did not see. And, the man shouted, "God show me a miracle."And, a life was born.
But, the man did not notice. So, the man cried out in despair,"Touch me God, and let me know you are here."Whereupon, God reached down and touched the man. But, the man brushedthe butterfly away and walked on.

God is always around us in the little and simple things that we take for granted...
Don't miss out on a blessing because it isn't packaged the way that you expect.

comDI

2006-07-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

i dont know how to say exactly how i feel
i cant begin to show you what your love has meant
im loss for words

is there a way to show the passion in my heart
can i express how truely great i think you are
my dearest friend

for this is my desire
to pour my love on you

like oil upon ure feet
like wine for you to drink
like water from my heart
i pour my love on you
if praises like perfume
i'l lavish mine on you
till every drop is gone
i pour my love on you

school's terrible today.
): cant explain why and how.
if only you knew.

His ways are higher than our ways

2006-07-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

ooh..
went to janis' blog just now. haha and saw tht she too, blogged about that particular excerpt.
then i got reminded by the sms she sent on 18march (:
i type some out here alright? hahah. dont kill me!
*slobber wet kisses on you

"..be strong and even stronger as you go thru tribulations in your life. im going to have all the faith as it takes to see you thru alrights. i love you, cry to the Lord, He hears."
thanks janis. youre so dear to me :D

and the last part "..cry to the Lord, He hears." really struck a chord.
then also, i went to robin's blog..
"..Olord can u hear me??"
yes He hears (:
"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.."

i love the way God works in our lives.
using our past experiences to help someone in the near future.
He doesnt waste our tears and pains (:
His thinking is higher than our thinking,
and so are His ways higher than ours.

i think,
im falling right back in love with God again.

lil things tht make me smile

2006-07-24T16:34:00.000+08:00

some little things in life that make me smile(:

1. watching chewy sleep(and she sleeps like a human!.. you can ask janis :D)
2. when commuters give up their seats for the needy
3. when they thank me for giving up my seat
4. listening to my fav songs when im out in malls, cars, shops..
5. thoughtful messages from friends <3 color="#ffff66">Joy for a Woman's Soul.
itsss truely refreshing and the promises in it really make me SMILE. (:

im gonna type out some excerpts from the book..
and i hope it touches you as much as it did to me.

"Go ahead and let the tears flow. But know too, that the blue of heaven is far bigger than gray clouds beneath."

"We cannot protect ouyselves from toubles, but we can dance through the puddles of life with a rainbow smile, twirling the only umbrella we need - the umbrella of God's love. His covering of grace is sufficient for any problem we have."

"Life is too short to spend it being angry, bored or dull. That was never God's intention. Maybe boredom and dullness arent on any list of sins in the Bible, but they will sap your joy if you tolerate them."

"If things are tough, remember that every flower that ever bloomed had to go through a whole lot of dirt to get there... With Jesus you have not a hopeless end but an endless hope!"

HAPPYBIRTHDAY ANGELINE!
my doll, my doll (:

things to do

2006-07-21T16:14:00.000+08:00

ive sooo many things to do, but yet i dont feel like doing.

ive to pack my rm(and this alone is a disaster, ive been living in a pig sty),
clear chewy's litter,
concept board for jeans,
re-do board for assign1,
re-draw for display,
remove nail polish,
EAT(ahh.. this one i feel like doing, but am too lazy to buy/cook),
revamp shoes,
pack wardrobe(its a war in there)..

but but, i cant seem to move my butt from this chair ):
aaaah!
get away from me, you sloth.

and then again, there are things that i want to do, but just cant seem to do it..
i dont wanna think bout you.
not all the time. Lord, take it away.

weixian's birthday today (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR GIRL!
I HEART YOU TO BITS AND PIECES.
one year older, wiser and prettier <3

Lord, if this desire is from you, will you bring it to pass?
guide me and lemme know where to start.

adfund!

2006-07-20T04:44:00.000+08:00

oh myyyyy.
i cant seem to finish my work.
and ive been doing adfund since 6pm YTD. RAAAH.
):

and i surrender all to You.
when im weak, You're strong.
You're my feet when i cant move on.

chewy caught a flu!

2006-07-19T01:37:00.000+08:00

HAHAHHA.
this is supeeeeeer hilarious.
i gotta blog bout it.

ok, ytd morning i was sooo reluctant to get out of my bed for school.
but guess what woke me up....?
CHEWY SNEEZING!
so at first i thought she choked ok, so i sat upright and stared at her.
so i realised she was sneezing.
she was sneezing until SO CUTEEE LUH. awwww!
she ahchooochooochooAHchooochooochooOCHooocoo.
like dont know for how longgggg then she stopped.
and just only, she started sneezing again x)
hahahha, ok.
and so, after a longggggg time..
i think chewy caught a flu :D
ok, it shouldnt be anything to be happy abt. BUT SHES JUST SO CUTE WHEN SHE SNEEZES! HAHHA.

ok, enough excitement.
hafta sleep.
sch tmr.. poof. but not to worry! end of the bloccck is coming! :D
wah super happy.

You covered my life with Your grace
darkness You turned into day

pam n weixian

2006-07-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

ohhh...
tell you guys something suuuuuuper heart-warming (:

i was supposed to go wexian's chalet after my proj in the afternoon ytd, but i had many assignments on hand, so i told her im not going already.
so while at home at bout.. 9, 10++ i received a call from pam :D
she said she n weixian dabao food for me, and she's gonna deliver to myyyyyyyy house.
then furthermore she said cos both of them knew that surely i haven had my dinner.
AWW. so sweeet right! and how true (: i was chiong-ing the sewing of jeans i didnt even have time to cook instant noodles.
oh myyyyy. i thank God for putting wonderful friends in my life.

annd now, celia received some lovin' from her friends! <3
a prayer answered (:
God works in wondrous waaaaaays!

thanks angeline too.
i loveee you /smooch!

i hope todays gonna be a funnnnnn day!

the times u get upset

2006-07-16T14:03:00.000+08:00

you know,
when you're upset/angry with someone..
you tend to just focus on all the negative things the person ever did/said to you.
but you entirely forgot all the times the person stood by you and offer words of encouragement, made you smile and chased your troubles away.

i find it just so sad.
i need some lovin' from my friends. ):

**and im not pin-pointing anyone, seriously.

step outside these walls

2006-07-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

you gotta step outside these walls.

church's gd (:
miracles and healings. its so touching.
after dinner, janis, aivie, robin and i did stupid n crazy stuffs.
haha i really cant imagine us doing that. oh my my.
robin is the funniest, with his 'HOO!' and all. hahah
(: i super love LOVE love tonight.

sigh, can anyone suggest what materials are recyclable and can be attached/sewn onto jeans, and yet look wonderful and creative at the same time?
hmm.. i need ideas. and im soooooo drained out of creative juices.
feed me some.

theres sooo many things to do.
so little time.
MULTIPLY MY TIME!

and i dont like it whn ppl get upset with me whn its not my fault.
hello. its not my fault tht im sick.
its not like i CHOSE to be sick now. ):
AAAAAAAAAHH.

create in me a new heart.
a brand new heart.

manicure

2006-07-12T18:57:00.000+08:00

ivm = disaster
i got my very first F.
arghh!

there are some things you grew up too quickly on, and some, just never.

i just got my first manicure on monday!
haha ok no big deal. but im like the slowest among my friends to get it.
so exciting (:
ok i promise not to bite my nails anymore!

ever felt like you tried so hard to be nice to someone and yet it all just fell apart?

You
You are the God who will save
cling onto all that You say
and for always
..when You gave your all away.

ivm ):

2006-07-12T00:24:00.000+08:00

ohhhhhhhh my!
IVM is horrible. really HORRIBLE.

flu flu go away.
GET LOST RIGHT NOW!
shoo. ure not welcome here. BYEBYE.

God first.
everything later.